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“Hope smiles from the threshold of the year to come, whispering 'it will be happier'...” ― Alfred Tennyson


Where did I go?

I don't know what happened these last couple of months but my desire to do the things I love completely escaped me. It's a new year though and I am trying hard to get back into the swing of things.

My mail pile is massive and if you've sent me something within the last 3..even 4 months than I am so sorry for not responding but I will eventually.

This year I plan on getting things done. I want to finish projects I abandoned last year and start new ones. I want to start blogging again and keeptrack of all my mail. I want to start painting again and making things. I want to do a lot of stuff.

I hope this year brings good things. My jar is ready to be filled.

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October is trucking a long and I am trying really hard to enjoy everything about it.

The weather is finally changing! It just started raining about an hour ago and we have some thunder too!

I have been doing a lot of thinking about life and I know things are changing. Last night in my meditation/ Dharma education class we learned that everything is impermanent and every second of the day is an opportunity to start a new beginning. Today Tim's mother shared the exact same quote with me. I am taking it as a sign. I feel really positive and optimistic today.

These last couple months have been really hard on Tim and I. I honestly don't think we'll make it to our 4 year anniversary on the 31st. I've been trying really hard to fix things but nothing is working and he's no longer putting any effort. We've been here before but I don't think we can recover from this one. I don't see us getting back together again if we do break up.

Anyways, keeping it positive here are some of my Halloween themed incoming and outgoing mail.
I am finally sitting down and replying to everyone. I have mail from late August that I still have not responded to >.<

outgoing:

The sky earlier today, right before the rain...

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It's hard to do the things you love when you're not happy.